"Whatwasherhusbandlike?"hewondered．Suddenly,histhoughtsturheslender．refined-lookingmawheeppedoutoftheelevator．ElinawasjustseeinghimoffandintroducedhimasIketoDimitri．Ike’sshoulder-lengthblondhairwasfashionablydyered；hislongeyebrowsobviouslypluckedandlined.Heworenolipstick，buttwoenormousdiamonds，abouttwocaratseach，dangledonhisears．Hehadonatight-fittingsuit,awhiteshirtencolrandcarriedanoblongalligatordy’shandbaginhishand．HesmiledandsaidhellotoDimitriinhispleasantlowresonantvoice,whichbespokeofhismellow,friendlydisposition．Watghimwalkintotheelevator，Dimitrithoughtthatfrombehind,helookedlikeacharmingdy．
ingoutofthebathroom,Elinawalkedovertoherwineet,putadeterofwhitewiwowinegssesonatrayandcarriedthemovertothecoffeetable,wherethereileofhand-writtenmusipositions．Onthecewerethewords："versingwithaNudeAngel-dedicatedtothebeautifulwomanwhowasmywife."Elinapouredouttwogssesofwine,handedooDimitriandsaid,"Cheers!"Theysippedtheirwineinsilence．
"Ialwaysthoughtyouweresingle,Elina．Wouldyouliketotellmeaboutit?"
"That’swhatIwaalktoyouabout.”
"Isthatso?Whatkindofmanwashe?"
"Heisthatfeminine-lookingmanyoumetattheelevator，sodifferentfromwhathewaswhenIfirstmethimincollege．He’sawonderfulpianist,excellentforhisinterpretationofChopinandatalentedposerinhisht．Thisissomethieespeciallyforme”saidElina,pointingtothemusithecoffeetable．Dimitritookupthemusicsheetswithiandsawthattheywerebeautifullywritteniartistid．
"I’msureit’sabeautifundsuperbpieusic.”
"WhenIwasincollege,Iwasverypopurandhadalotofboyfriends．Onweekends，theywouldetothedormandtrytodatemeandIkewasohem．AtfirstIdidn’tpayatentiontohim,butonedayIfoundoutthathisloveformewastrue．Thatm,quiteafewofmybeauxturnedupandIdecidedtokeepthemwaitingandseehowmany,ifany,couldpassthetestofpatieupforthem.Oeraheygotimpatientofwaitinga，untilintheend,aftereighthours,onlyIkeremained．Hesatiingroomofthedorm,writingouthisnewporarycssiposition,whichhededicatedtome,soengrossedandiinhisworkthathelosttraeandsurroundings．Nimblefingersflewoverthewoodentableasifitiaowingtheinanimateobjectwithartisticpowers.Hummingandpying,hewouldstoptowriteoutafewbarsormakecorreswheupouneorhattune,writtenonthedayIdecidedtotestmybeaux，washisfirstpresenttome．He’sbeenwonit，revisingit，foralongtimeandtonighthebroughtmehishand-writtenpositionasapartinggiftinmemoryofourmarriage．We’vebeenseparatedforooseehowwestandaherdivorceistheonlywayout．Ilovehimandstillkeephispicturewithmeallthetime,butIkethinksweshouldendourmarriage.”ShetookoffthelocketandwhichsheworearoundhernedhaoDimitri,saying
"That’shim."Dimitriopehelocketandlookedatthesmallpictureinside．Hewasahandsomemanwithintelligent,-cutfeatures,mencholyblueeyesdeepastheseaandfulloflove．Hisartistidhairwaslybedandhewascasuallydressedinanavy-blueturtlenecksweater．
Eliohestoryoftheirromandmarriageinalow,pensivevoice．Aftershefoundouttheextentofhistrueloveforher,Elinafellheadoverheelsinlove．Shehadthisstrangefeelingthatshehadknownhimbeforeforalongtimeandknownhimwell．Everymovementcouldbringresoheyplungedheadlonginte．SheknewbeforehermarriagethatIkeotent,butshedidn’tcare．Shethoughtthatloveandlustweretwopletelydifferentthingsandshehadmarriedforlove．Butastimepassed，shegraduallybecameawareofsomethingmissing．Trueandpureastheirlovewas，itwasonlyamirage,gthedown-to-earthloveoftheflesh．Shecouldnolongerbesatisfiedwithansthesizeofalittlefinger．Ikeuoodandcametothepainfuldecisionthatitwasunnaturaltodenyherhealthybody．Heallowedhertohaveaffairswithothermen．Atfirst,Elinaagreed,buteverytimeshecamebackafterferociousandtempestuouslove-making，herhungerfullysatisfied，shewasstruckwithasenseofguiltandremorse．ThepaininIke’seyes,whichhetriedsohardtoceal,waslikeakuherheart．Theyfellintoeachothersarms,g．Therepetitionofthissebecameanightmareuntiltheyfeltthattotihisretionshipwascrueltobothofthemanddecidedonseparatioheirfeelings．Theypartedamicably，stillverymulove，andtonightIketoldherhisdecision—divorce．Elihathermarriagewasnotamistake；herwasherdivorce．Loveandlustcouldbeseparate．Loveiritualintercoursebetweentwopeople．EverytimeshewaswithIkeaaloveforhim,itbroughtitsownfulfillment,pleteinitself,withouttheneedforphysitimacy;justasapletelysatisfyingsexualintercoursesometimeshasnoneedforspirituallove．Elinasattherelookinglostandpensive．
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