Foroisgohendofurn,
Itwillneverebackagain.”
Thesewordssoundedsadandpealsohadatantalizingtouchofprovokinglust.Dimitriwasnotapyboytypeoverlyiedinsex.Orary,heseemedtobemorelikeaic.Charinacouldnotmakeheadortailsoutofthetruemeaningofthosewords,sosheshruggedanddecidedtoputitasideforthemoment,thinkingthereletimetoaskhimaboutitterwhenshehadace.Shetiltedhergsstofinishoffherwhiskey.
Itwasstillsummer,butteatnightthewindwasstillrathercoldbythesideoftheke.PerhapsCharina’sclothingwastoothin;sheshiveredinthecooirandfinishedherdrinkinaquaff.PattingMaureenlightlyontheheadshesaid,“Iamgoingtosleep.Whataboutyou?”Maureenbarkedasiftelliosleepinpeaditwouldstandguardduringthenight.Charinasmiled,pattedMaureenontheheadandstoodup.Dimitrihadnotreallybeenasleep.Heonlypreteosnore,whileiyhisearswereattuheversationofthebeauties.HeheardChariingintohersleepingbagahingaroundturnedquiet.Heopenedoneeye,wiMaureencheekilyandwavedtoit.ThelittledoguoodandcurleditselfintothecrookofDimitri’sarms.ItwasonlythenthatDimitrilethimselfslipintodreamnd.
ThedreamndDimitriehistimewasquitedifferent.Hisformerdreamswereutterlyillusoryanduheirtents,unsubstantiaerous,weremostlyinunectedbitsandpiecesimpossibletopiecetogetherintoalogicalwhole.Thistimeitwasquitedifferent.Heerfectlyawarethathehadenteredareandstableworld.Everythingaroundhimreflectedagoldenbrilliancebrightasthesunbutwasnothurtfultohiseyes.herwasthesunlightthatshoneonhisbodytoohottobear.Infactitfeltwarmandweling.Hisbodywassurroundedinacircleoflight.Dimitriwaoknowwherehewasanddecidedtofindhisbearing.Helookedaroundanddiscoveredthatthesunlightdidnotcastashadowofhisbodyontheground.Ifthatwasso,wherehadhisbodygoo?Haditdiedandbeeroyed?Wasthisaernalstateofmind?Dimitriwasbothsadandhappyattheturs.Hewassadthatthisfleshbodyofhisthathadbeenwithhimforsomanyyears,thoughdisabledandsicklyandaburdenonhimattimes,wasdearertohimthanadirectretive.Hefeltlostanddissotewithoutit.Butoherhandheytofindthatthelossofhisfleshbodydidterdestruofhimasay.Hehadachieved‘eterence’,whichishistrueself.Amildfeelingofhappinessrosefromthedepthofhisheart.Itwasafeelingquitedifferentfromtheventionaloresultedfromstarktrastwiththestimutionofgreatpain.ThemildfeelingofdelightinDimitri’sheartwasanaturalfeeling,owasbarelydisablebutwhichhehappeocatch.“WhyhaveIunknowinglyoverlookedsuchafeelinginalltheyearsIhavebeenalive?”Dimitriwondered.Suchmildfeelingofhappinessisaminuteoneimpossibletoexpressinwords.Allhislife,Dimitri’sfleshbodyhadsufferedallkindsofworriesaions.Theyedthemselvessotightlyaroundhim,somelightasspider’swebandotherstenaciousasfishihathewasuountanglehimself.Butnowinthisperfectworldfullhtnessandradianceallhistroubles,vexationsaersdisappearedwithoutatrathispureworldofunendinghappihiseterenceismyrealself.Sothereissuderfulstateofmindinthisworldofours!WhyhaveIneverknownofitsexistencebefore?It’sreallystupidofme!Perhapstroubleandsufferinghadhoodwinkedmyeyes.NowIfinallyuandthatthehappinessbroughtbypilingupmoneyandmaterialgoodsisheyarefalsebecausesuchfeelingwilldisappearwhenmoneyandmaterialgoodsdisappear,whilethemildhappinessIfeelnowisnotdependantonanythingelse.Thisismyrealselfierence.
Dimitriwasenjoyinghissolitarywalk,strollingaimlesslyamidthewideexpanseofbrilliaoxicatedbythemild,naturalfeelingofhappinessanddelightemanatingfromthedepthofhisheart.Suddeumbledandfellintoadarkabyss.Hiseyescouldnotdistinguishanythingsohetriedtofeelthespacearoundhim.Itwasn,justrgeenoughtoaodatehim.ThetemperaturewaswarmandfamiliarwhichmadeDimitrietotheclusionthathehadagainfallenintotheprisonofhisfleshbody,aprisonwherehecouldhelightofday.Hesighedandwonderedhowlonghewouldbeheldcaptiveinthisdarkprisonwherehecouldnotevenseehisownfingersbeforehewouldhaveacetocatlimpseoftheoutsideworld,sothrivingandprosperous.Hethought,
“Wasn’tIjustwalkingaloneinabrightanddelightfulstateofmind?HowcoulditbethatiwinklingofaneyeIamoncemorebathisdarkdungeon?Itseemsthatbrightnessanddarknessareonlygesisofthevisionahatfarapart!PerhapsverysoonIwilgainbeabletoseethemagnifitradiance.”AllofasuddenbrightnessfloodedDimitri’seyesashisloyalservantsImaginationaivitypriedopenagapoopofhisheadwherehiseyesenedupaskylightforhim.Fromtheskylight,hesawthewonderfulvaststarlitskiesstretgendlesslybeforehim,wherethestarswerearrangediremelyorderlymahestaroDimitrishonebrilliantlydazzlinghiseyesandthengedintoabeautifulflowerofashapehehadneverseenbefore.Dimitriturnedhimselfintoabeeandmadestraightfortheflower.Actually,Dimitri’ssickly,disabledbodyhadbeengedintoastreamlinedspaceship,whichheiloting,flyingintheuniverse,visitingthevariousstars.Dimitriwaspletelylost,notknowiherhewasactuallyaworkbeebusilydangamongsttheflowersbloomingluxuriantlyinthegardengatheriaroranastronautflyingaspaceshiptransformedfromhisownfleshbodyintheendlessuniverse.“PerhapsIwilllosemywayintheuniverse.Iwillflythisspaceshipwhichwastransformedfrommyfleshbodyandvisitthefleshbodyofafemale.ButwhetherIamabeeoranastronaut,itisagrandadventureimpossibletoexpininwords.”ItsuddenlycametoDimitrithatthisstrawonderfulexperiencewasreallythereappearahebrightandradiantstateofmind.Notonlywasitreappearaerimposedonthefleshbodyofhiswhichwaslikeadarkdungeohesunlightneverpeed.Thesuperimpositionofspiritandfleshbodyisasshortandactasthemeetingofwaterandduckweed.Weedandwaterwillartintheend.Fleshbodycamefromdustandonedaywilliablyreturntodust.Spiritcamefromheavehandittoowillonedayreverttonature.Thatshortandactalmeetingofspiritandfleshbodyissomethingthatshouldbetreasured.Hethought,“Didn’tItellCharinaoweshouldliveuptoandenjoyourfleshbodytothefullestwhilewecould?ThatwaswhatImeant.AtthetimeCharinadidn’tappeartouandthemeaningofthosewords.NowthatIhaveetoaandingofallthis,IhopeIwillstillrememberitwhenIasthiswillbethebestinterpretationandexpnationofwhatImeantbythesuperimpositionofspiritandfleshbody”Thestringofunceasingbarkieredhissciousness.MaureenwastryingtowakehimbybitingandpullingatthelegsofhistrousersandhealsoheardthesoundsofCharina’schokingcoughandpainfulgroans.“Ohhought.“Mybeautifulpanionisnotusedtolifeintheopen.It’sherfirstdayexperiengthelifeofahomelessperson.Hasallthisbeentoomuchforher?”
Itwasaheavilymistym,butohefogcleareditwassuretobeabrightandsunnyday.Davidhadbeenthrowndownonthegroundattheerofthestreet,hishandsboundbehindhimandhismouthstuffedwithrags.Hewasnoloerrifiedforhimself.Oraryhisheartwasfullofpeace.Hethought,“Dimitriisreallyastrangeguy.HeledmeintohisKingdomofDreamsandeoenjoytheawesomelifeofamagnifitking,experiengallthewealthandrichestheworldcouldoffer.Havingexperiencedallthat,Iwouldhavediedwithret,evenifthoseruffianswhhedmeuphadshotandkilledme.”Athestreetnearbyscreechedtoahaltandhurriedfootstepcouldbeheardingtowardshim.Afraidthatitwasthethugsbacktokillhim,Davidclosedhiseyesandwaitedfortheendtoe.Buthefeltsomeonepulltheragsoutofhismouthandloosenedhisboundhands.OpeninghiseyeshesawitwasDimitri’sgoodfriendRichardwhowascrouchedbesidehim,grinningcockilyandmakingfunofhimsaying,
“peoyou,olddog?GotintoaquarrelwithsomeonearettebuttsandgottheSh1Tbeatenoutofyou?Theyevenboundandgaggedyouandthrewyouhereattheerofthestreet!”Davidsatup,shookhisstiffandnumbarmsandmuttered,
“No,no,no…Itwasn’tlikethatatall!Idon’tuandmyselfpenight.IjustknowIalmostlostmylife.”HethentoldhisstorytoRichardhaltingly,jumblingupthefacts,butusedtohisramblingsRichardgotthepointandfortedhimsaying,
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