ThedistantrofengineswokeDimitrifromhisreverie．Helookeduptoseeanairlinerpassingoverhead,wonderedidlywhetherElinaandNovelwereonitahertheyhaddecidedtogotalortohisKingdomofDreams．Thenheughedathisownfolly．Thepassingoftimethesestfewdayshadleftabefuddledimpressioninhisthoughts．Hefoundithardtoascertaihertheywererealpeoplewhoactuallyexistedandcameintohislife，orjusttwobeautiesofhisimagination．Dimitritouchedhiseyesaaslightpain．Yes,onlyohingwascertain,hewasgoingblindonedayinthenearfuture．Sittingonthebenchbytheroadside,hewatchedcarafterby．
"Willmysightbegoneinafsh,likethesecars?"hewondered．Hepoheeventsofhislifeandthoughttheywereuniqueindeed．Inreallife，hewasalwaysstrugglingwithadversity，findingresurreonlyinhisdreams，likealogier，nowfloating，nowsinking．Dreamsaypiledoneupoher,iingandmixedtogether.Suchwashislife．Hesawalongcigarettebuttonthegroundnearby,crushedbysomeone’sheels．Hepickeditup,rolleditsoftlyandcarefullybetweenhisfiomakeitroundagainandlightingit,sankbathebenchtoenjoytheluxuryofasmoke．
"WhoamI?"heaskedhimself．"That’saneasyquestiontoanswer．IamwhoIam，avagabondwiththemirageofabeautifulheavenlykingdominmymind．Iliveandwanderarouhwithit.”
Freaterpartoftheday,Dimitriwouldsitthereinatrance,seeminglydoingnothing,buthisbrainwasfuriouslyatwork．Itwashisdailyroutine,likethephysicalexerciseoftheaverageman．Justthen,hewashavingastrangevisiohisbodybehindandbecameohthetranquilevening，uhitspeadjoy．Inhismienthoughtofaencebeyondtheuniverse，carefreeandromantiottihanypessimisticthoughts．Undersuchcircumstances，he’dratherbelieveiheoryofReination，notiouslevel，butonthelevelofpoetitasy．Butthehought,no．Soul,reinatiolife,theseareonlythebrainchildofclever，profoundphilosophers,notreallypractical．Heonlybelievedinhisfleshbodywithitswarmtemperature，thepulsatiaivebrain．Thousandsuponthousandsofdaysandnightshavegoneby,buthehadneverfeltthepresenceofasouttachedtohisbodywithwhichhewasasfamiliarasifitwerehislifelongspouse．Buthebelievedonlyinthought，whichwasagenuineanofthebody，atooltoacquirementandphysicalequilibrium．Iftherewasasoul，itwasonlytheshadowofhisfleshbody．Strangelyenough，allthroughtheages,wisemenhavefocusedtheirattentionontheshadowinsteadofthebody．
Fullysatisfiedwiththeday’sworkdohebrain，Dimitristretchedhimselfandwokeuptohissurroundings．Bloomingazaleasmethiseyewhilesoothingeveningwindscaresseshisbody．
"IfIdidnothavemyfleshbody，Iwouldnotbeabletoenjoysuchbeautifulses.”hethought．"Thoughmysightwilleventuallydriftawayoneday,itisstillherenow．Imustmakethebestuseofthelimitedtimegrantedme．Whatwillbe,willbeanditwouldbefoolishnottoenjoymyselfwhileIdwasteitonfruitlessworry.”HestooduptowalkaroundandenjoythebeautifulLakeMerrittattwilight．inguponagarbage,hecasuallyflippedthroughitstentsfromforceofhabitandpulledoutadiscarded1991dar,stillquitenew．Hecasuallyflippedthroughitspagesandwasecstatictofindtwelvenudebeautiesinvariousposes.Hispulseacceleratedahimselfgettied．
“Thefleshbodyisastrahihought.“Theseareonlypictures,beautifundgraphicthoughtheybe,notrealnudewomenintheflesh,butthesightofthemhavethepowertoinfluencemybody．Whowouldthrowthemawayinthegarbage?It’sasacrilegetothesebeauties!Hemustbearough,callousbruteofamanwhodoesnothaveatenderheartforthefairsex.”Dimitriputthedarinsidehiscoatandtinuedonhisleisurelyroudasachivalrousknightwhohadsavedtwelvedamselsindistressfromdirtandstinkofthegarbage．
Dimitrilookedaboutforaquietandsecludedspottoenjoythesetwelvebeauties,whowouldbematerialforhisdreamthatnight．Therewasadulhisbreastwhenherealizedbeautycouldonlybefullyappreciatedthroughthesenseofsight．Odriftedaway,sowouldhisvisibleenjoyment．
"Goingblindintheprimeoflifeisequivalenttobeingcastrated”hethoughtwithaheavyheart．However,hisfrustrationwasonlymomentary．Heremindedhimselfofhisresolutionnottowastetimeonuselessself-pity,buttomakethemostofwhathehadnow．
"EvenifIgoblind,thememoryofthesebeautieswillliveonforeverinmymemory．Thefleshbodyisstrahatafewsuggestivelines，welldraroduceasmuchimpactasabeautifulgraphicpicture．Itisihesourceofbothhappinessandsorrow，whicharesoentwiogetherthatitishardtodistinguishonefromtheother，fortome,botharesweet.”Hisfootstepstookhimtoaeroftheparkheservatory，seldompatronizedbyrowdyteenagersandpyfulchildredownihegazebotoenjoyhisnew-foundtreasure．
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