elwenttoherseatandlitacigarette,slowlyinhalingandexhaling．Duskwasadvang．Atthistimeoftheday，shealwaysfeltmencholyanddespo．Asadexpressioncoveredherbeautifulfacewithitsnobleforehead，rgesoulfuleyesandflushedcheeks．Herappearance，geousandmajestic，coupledwithelegantandrefinedmanners，madeheranunfettableandmesmerizingfigure，whetherlifecastherintheroleofasaunoradissoluteandwantonaristocrat．Aflockofswallowsflewpastherwindow.Hereyesfollowedthemastheysoaredawayanddisappearedinthehorizon．Standingup，shewalkedovertothewindowandsatdownbeforethepianowhichwaslittlemorethanapieceofjunk，butasherslenderfiouchedtheold，yellowkeystenderly，shemaocoaxoutofthem,wonderfulmusic．Shesangasshepyed，
"Whohaslostherprecioushopeiwilight?
Thetwilightthattreasuresthepartingofeveryguesttoremotepces．
Yourfranticfootstepsscatteredthebirdsrestingonthebranches
Perhapsnowtheyrememberit’stimetoreturntotheirs．
Starsscatteredaboutthetwilightskieslookdownmystifledatyourfranticfootsteps
Youlostyourhopeiwilight
O，hopewillneverbefoundagain，
Perhapstwilightwilltakethepceofitsmother’sheart.”
Shestopped，headbowed,herfingerslyingidleonthekeyboardforamoment．Sadae,elbeganpyingagain,poutinmusicthesecretsbottledforsolonginherheart．Themusietimesloudands,sometimeslowandmurmuringrevealedhercloselyguardedpast.Itwasalsoatwilightafternoohesettingsunstillremaihecoldair．elyasshewalkediyandclutteredghettostreets．Ifitweren’tfortherestriposedbyherhabit，whichcurtailedherhighspirits，demandingasolemndemeanor,herfootstepswouldbelightanddang．Shehadjustvisitedsomejuvenileprostituteswhohadbeenvertedtoanormallifethroughherpersistentadvice．Itmadeherveryhappyindeed．Suddenlyargeshadowcoveredthesunshiallrobustmanblockedherway．ItwastheferociousandhideousBig-O．elhadhelpedtoomanyyounggirlsescapefromhisclutches,andnowhehadeatsttosettlescoreswithher．Thedevilhadetofronttheangelforashowdown．eldidn’tevenhaveacewhensheushedintoawaitingcarbyhismen．Afteratraumaticthreedays，shewasreleasedandbroughtbacktothevent,bringingwithiheseedofanewlife．Weekster,elrealizedsheregnant．Worsestillshedidn’tevenknowfromwhichmalebodythenewlifederived．Butshedidthelossofherchastity,foritredeemedthelifeandfreedomofanigirl．ThoughacctotheBible,theModwasavirginwhoceivedthroughanImmacuteception,apregnantnunwouldonlybringshameandinfamytoherselfandherorder．Pregnancywasanaturalphenomenon,notanillhatcouldbecuredbymedication,sotheonlyrecoursewasabortion．Thesongeljustsangwaswrittenforherunfortunateunbornchild．AfterthatwhenevershekbeforetheVirginMaryshecouldneverrecoverherformerserenityandtranquillity．Thecolpsehhopesandhersubsequentinsatiableobsessionwithenjoymentofherfleshbody，leftherwithonlyonerecourse-tobreakhervowaurntosecurlife．Thehemostdissoluteyearsofherlife．ShegedjobstoeludetheemotioaofheradmirersandmovedfrequentlytothrowofftherelentlesspursuitofBig-Oandhisgang．Shedidn’tknowwhereherlifewasheaded．Perhapsbecauseofherbeautifulfleshbody，shewasnotsuitedforthismundaneworld，butmoresuitedtothesublimityandtranquillityofheaven．
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